Sadstuck! Fem!ReaderxTerezi SuperHero

((AN:  This is the first Fanfiction that I’ve worked up the nerve to upload and I’m sorry that it’s so long or at least it looks long to me on actual paper….This fanfic does have a bit of Jade x reader but mostly sad friendship crap. Well that’s it and I hope some of you like it! ^-^ P.S In this fanfic your patron troll is Tavros just because it makes the story a bit sadder so DEAL WITH IT!!!))


  You, (f/n) (l/n), are currently running down these once dull gray but now grotesquely colorful hallways of the Veil. Just praying, hoping, begging for teal not to be mixed into the array of colors strategically splattered everywhere. Tears were threatening to start as you realized who each of those colors represented. If you didn’t know that trolls had different blood colors than humans you would have thought that this continuum of splatters was strangely beautiful, but sadly it was not beautiful definitely not to your present self. The sight sickened you to even begin to imagine what had happened to your friends in order to cause those splashes of color all around you. You felt yourself try to swallow the painful lump in your throat. I can’t cry now, I can’t she wouldn’t cry at a time like this. The burning feeling that you get in your lungs after running for a while was starting to creep into your senses. “Where the hell is she?!” you said to yourself noticing that desperation had crept into your voice. Your panic growing as you dashed around another corner. Your ears picking up on that low, deep, ongoing, honking that you’ve grown to loathe within this last hour. Your mind started to wander back to a few hours before all this chaos erupted on this stupid meteor.

      Few Hours Ago…..
    You were laying on the floor of what you have made to be your room, seeing as no one else on the Veil was using the space. You didn’t like to bother the trolls often considering you were the only human on this god forsaken rock, oops you mean “gog”. You have the feeling that you make the others uncomfortable, considering you’re the only human they have actually met in person, with your non gray skin, your (e/c) eyes,  (h/l) (h/c) hair, and what they say to be alien behavior. Well to them you are an alien. You’re still kinda fuzzy on how you got here in the first place.  One day you were playing Sburb beta with John, Rose, Jade, and Dave. The next day you’re on a floating rock in the middle of paradox space do to some spacey thing Jade had tried out on you when she first got her godteir. You giggled as you recalled Jade pestering you constantly apologizing saying you could use your (player powers) on her some time. She truly felt really guilty for sending you to the Veil.
 While you were zoning out it seems that your moirail, Terezi, had come into your room unannounced and is now “looking” down at you with that usual mischievous grin on her face. You still wonder how exactly she knows where to find you all the time considering she’s blind.

     “So why is my moirail laying on the floor again?” The teal blood asked tilting her head to the side. You felt yourself grin as you proceeded to blow your (h/c) bangs out of your face. “Because I’m bored and being bored while standing up is even more boring” you answered. Terezi responded with that cackle you love so much. Okay so you guess you have ‘flush crush?’ on your moirail. You’re still a bit rusty on troll romance even with Karkat ranting about each of the quadrants to you constantly.  “Well we should change that” Terezi said grabbing your wrist and pulling you up off the floor. You wondered what childish game she had come up with this time to rid you of your bordom.

Present…..
       “HONK! honk! HONK! honk!” It echoed, getting louder as you sprinted around another corner. She’s probably looking for Spider Bitch. You thought knowing that your moirail is most likely blaming Vriska for all of this and has no idea that the stupid clown did all of this. Suddenly you felt your foot get caught upon something hard and, from the sound your foot made when it collided with whatever it was, metallic. You fell to the ground with a loud thud. You winced as you felt a pang of pain shoot up your left leg. In your panic you lifted yourself up a bit so that you were sitting and turned to see what had caused you to fall. Your eyes widened as you gasped, seeing the decapitated body of none other than your old patron troll Tavros Nitram. Another pang of pain came to you only it wasn’t the pain of a wound it was the pain of guilt. You instantly remembered when you were younger on earth, before playing the game was even a thought in your mind, getting trolled by him on multiple occasions. Your memory decided to remember the one time when you had gotten so fed up with his ‘trolling’ that you had wished he would just go die somewhere………..

    The tears started then at that moment you couldn’t be as strong as you had wished. Your head drooped down so that you were staring at the ground as your hot tears mixed in with the mud colored blood on the floor. You also realized but didn’t really care at that currant moment that you were covered in the brown substance due to your fall earlier. Which only caused you to sob even more.

Few hours earlier…….
“Terezi, just what are you doing?” you asked filled to the brim with curiosity.  The teal blooded troll had led or you guess half led half dragged you into Kanaya’s room and she is currently changing into a certain surprise she had said that she had for you as she had dragged led you down the hallway. It appeared to you that the troll was changing behind something similar to those Asian paper wall things that you never knew the name of. “Remember it’s a surprise.” She replied followed by a cackle. You sighed as you rested your head in your hands. Some said patience wasn’t your greatest skill. “Does Kanaya know we’re in here?” you sprung another question. You hear a giggle come from the paper wall before you got your answer. Hearing that automatically made you smile. “Maybe she does, maybe she doesn’t.” You rolled your eyes at that reply.

 After a few minutes, Terezi leaped out in front of you wearing a shimmering red and bright neon teal……well what looked similar to a superhero costume, cape included along with the libra symbol on it, she also had a cherry red mask around her eyes, and not to mention teal tights. She seemed to be glowing with pride well that could have been the cape.  “Dave told me you humans have these good doers who fight evil in the name of justice!” Terezi said very excitedly. “Phffffft!” you started cracking up laughing causing your moirail to raise an eyebrow in confusion. You couldn’t help it she reminded you of your old neighbor when you were little. He was a little younger that you and he had always ran around in his spiderman costume. “Heh, did you ask Kanaya to make you that?” you asked your giggling dieing down. “Yes and the best part is-!” She paused for suspense as she grabbed a bundle of (2 f/c) fabric from a shelf and held it out in front of her. “There is a matching one for you!” Now it was TZ’s turn to laugh as your big grin turned into a frown in the blink of an eye.

 It’s not like you have anything against superheros it’s just, when you were younger like way younger like back on earth before you even started chatting with Jade and the others ,your grandmother , well when she was still alive, went through this huge ballet phase and she pulled you right in with her. For about four years she had you in classes and competitions which you had dreaded. After that just the thought of anyone in tights makes you a bit queasy, especially grown men in capes. But the teal tights your moirail was sporting looked pretty flattering on her. You blushed a bit as you realized what you just thought. You soon realized that she was gesturing for you to put on the damn thing. “Oh boy“ you said quietly to yourself as you grabbed the bundle that TZ had outstretched towards you. “Hey I’m blind not deaf!” you giggled in response.

                Present…..
   Suddenly you hear the sinister echoing of the subjugulator cease. You felt your muscles tense up as you listened to the eerie silence. You felt your pulse start to speed up as more fear set in. You always hated silence because it made you lonely but that was the only thing that made this silence worse was that you knew you weren’t alone. Something’s wrong you thought. Very, very wrong. You let out a surprised yelp as you felt a sudden cold slimy hand grip the back of your neck. “Motherfucking found you, Sis! “ You flinched hearing the coldness in Gam’s voice. Oh how you wish you were dreaming. If you were this would be one fucked up dream bubble. You started to shake as his hand tightened its grip. You squeezed your eyes shut bracing yourself for the worst. “Gam please” You pleaded in a small voice. You felt yourself slowly being risen off the ground by the scruff of your neck. Suddenly a rage filled scream filled the air as you were dropped to the floor followed by a thump that you knew didn’t come from you.  You turned around frantically to see why you weren’t in unbearable pain. You gasped as you saw none other than your moirial , Terezi, holding what appeared to be Feferi’s trident covered in indigo blood. You figured that she had happened upon Fef’s body and took the weapon while looking for Vriska. Which by looking at the teal bloods now blue stained Redglare cosplay she had found her.

 You quickly scramble to get up, or attempt to as you continued to struggle you realized that that last drop onto Tav’s robo legs made the gash on your calf bigger and deeper that you got when you fell on him the first time. You looked up from your legs just as Terezi did something you would have never expected given the situation. She dashed over to you and embraced you. Your eyes widened in surprise and you strangly felt saddened cause of this hug. Which was strange because normally you would have been happy. Right? Maybe it was because this hug it felt much to much like a goodbye. The hug  lasted about five seconds but to you it lasted for what seemed like an hour. “Thank gog” she whispered just before she pushed you onto one of those transportalizer pads that seemed to be located just about everywhere on this meteor. You stared at Terezi in shock. Stuff then started to get all painfully and colorfully fuzzy and the last two things you managed to make out were Terezi’s eyes filling up with teal tinted tears and the thing that still horrifies you to this day the very last thing you saw was Gamzee getting back up.

     Suddenly you were on the golden ship, a couple weeks in the future , sprawled out next to Jade who was on her lunchtop. Jade’s bright green eyes widened behind her glasses as she stared at you. “(y/n)! What happened to you!” Jade exclaimed as she practically threw her lunchtop and started fussing over you. You weren’t at all surprised by her reaction you knew you looked like a bloody mess, literally. But you didn’t bother to answer her questions or to complain about her fussing like you normally would. You quickly snatched the lunchtop and started clicking away as you remember Jade saying or chatting with you earlier that she had recently installed the program that the trolls had used to view your guys session. After a bunch of button tapping and frantically asking Jade what the date was today you finally got what you wanted. Within seconds the screen popped up at the exact moment you had transported off of the Veil and what you and Jade saw next was………..Well you both watched as your moirail, no your love , was brutally robbed of her life.

       It’s been a few months after the “incident” as your human  friends are now referring to it as. After what you witnessed, with Jade at your side, that day she wanted, well more of demanded , that you will be living on the ship near her and John for the next three years. And after a few dream bubble encounters with Sollux about a few days after the so called “incident” you found out that Terezi had been planning with him to send you back into your own session for a while. “2he thought you were lonely wiithout  your human friiend2 around” You remembered that night clearly it was about two days after TZ’s death you remember waking up all flustered and angry. You remembered throwing things and screaming in your stupor. You remembered Jade coming into your room to calm you down. You also remember that night was the first night you had allowed yourself to cry over her.

  The night you got back however you were basically in shock both your mind and your body. You didn’t sleep that night. Your eyes were glued to Jade’s lunchtop screen, staring at her contacts on pesterchum. Your eyes wouldn’t leave the bright glowing screen, you wouldn’t stop  reading and rereading the name gallowsCalibrator. You had refused all food and comfort from Jade and Rose, whom Jade had some how transported over. You just sat and glared at the illuminated screen. Cursing that damn clown under your breathe the whole night.

 The following month you felt a deep guilt all the time, blaming yourself for every negative thing or accident that would happen around you, even if it was something as small as John or Jade tripping, you blamed yourself. You started thinking that maybe you secretly desired to feel contrite. But more than anything you just felt empty most of the time as if you were drained of everything beatific, cheerful, and well happy. The things that you use to look at and feel that random burst of stupid happiness that caused you to smile were dull, somber, and almost to clear in your eyes. But the thing you’re still currently guilt ridden about is how all of this was effecting Jade.

  One night while stumbling around in a lifeless haze you happened upon a room with what sounded like muffled weeping streaming out of it. You crept up to the golden door and decided to open it a crack and peek inside. Big mistake.  Your (e/c) eyes widened as you saw what looked like John embracing a sobbing Jade. Then you heard the words that still make your chest sting with blame today. Jade looked up at John her glasses all crooked her hair all messy and out of place. Her face was flushed pink and her nose runny and her face was tear stained. “ It’s all my fault John, i-if I never sent her there –hic- in the first place then-then she wouldn’t –hic- be like this she wouldn’t be suffering -hic-“ Jade choked out. John sighed “Jade” Jade suddenly pushed him away shaking. “No, you don’t understand -hic- if –hic- I didn’t send her there –hic- she wouldn’t have fallen in love –hic- and she wouldn’t have had to watch as her happiness was taken away from her……-hic-… John I-I ruined her….” Jade said her voice trembling as more tears poured down out of her vivid green eyes. You sank to the floor not wanting to hear anymore. Your eyes widened with realization that your friend, your best friend since before the game, the friend who had been holding you at night while you cried and cursed god, the friend who had been force feeding you, the friend who had been by your side most of the time recently because she was to afraid to leave you alone, the friend who has been doing all of this without a single complaint, the friend that you’ve never said thank you to for all of this. Jade has been basically mothering you since you came back and the fact that she was feeling this because of you………

  Later you reasoned with yourself that if your happy on the outside that maybe Jade would be happy on the inside. You started doing things like smiling and actually making conversations to make your friends think that you were starting to get over the “incident”. But unfortunately you blew that charade a few weeks ago when Jade had discovered you in your room violently throwing shit and screaming in frustration. Due to you not being able to find a dream bubble with Terezi in it…. You remember Jade having to pin you to the floor to stop you from trashing your room. When you had come out of your incensed trance and you realized you were pinned down to the floor by a screaming Jade. You had stopped yelling profanities and your memory in that moment had decided to force you to remember when you had ease dropped on Jade and John. And to remember Jade hysterically regretting sending you to the Veil.  “(f/n)?” Jade whispered a bit skittish from witnessing your behavior a few minutes ago. You glanced up at her as she slowly got off of you. Your eyes burning with tears and you met her fluorescent green eyes. You dropped your head and started shaking it back and forth. “Jade, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, sorry, sorry, sorry, I’m so sorry, I’m sorry, sorry, sorry.” You continuously repeated apologies and in between sobbing and apologizing you explained to Jade that you had saw her break down that one night. After you had calmed down abit and had tranfered from sobbing to hiccupping Jade had smiled faintly and pulled you into an embrace. Your eyes widened as Jade said. “No, (f/n) I’m sorry”

            Present………..
    You are currently in a dream bubble alone like usual. Well sometimes Sollux or Tavros  is there but not now. Most of the time when you’re in a dream bubble by yourself ,which is rare, you usually walk through memories of you and TZ. But you didn’t feel up to it this time around. It would only put you in gloomy mood when you woke up. You just didn’t feel like sifting through the happy times like when you and the teal blood drew all over the Veil walls with colorful chalk then getting yelled at by Karkat about it or roleplaying with Nepeta or even when you two would prank Vriska or any of the other shenanigans you had with the blind girl.

 Right now though you were in back in your room on the Veil in your usual position of laying on the floor, staring at the ceiling, Trying not to think about her. You knew that if you thought about her it would just end up with you missing her even more. Well technically you were thinking about not thinking about her which really means that you’re thinking about her. So ultimately  you were failing here.

 Suddenly you heard a familiar cackle causing you to shoot up right. “Terezi?”  You called out softly while wildly looking around the room your eyes fell upon something vaguely familiar. A red cape lined with teal. Your eyes filled with tears as your vision began to blur you slowly got up. You remembered what your moirail was showing you hours before the chaos that day.  As you went over and picked it up tears streamed down your face as you picked up the red material. You held it to your face only causeing you to weep harder as you picked up her scent from the garment. Cherries. You glanced around the room once more trying to catch a glimpse of the deceased troll. As you did so you notice a piece of paper had fallen from the shimmering red mess in your arms. You picked it up and on it written in non other than red chalk was the word H4LL with an arrow pointing in that direction. You grinned knowing this is something she’d pull. You wasted no time thumping into the hallway you stopped in your tracks as you saw a huge message written in again red chalk on the wall.

“ (f/n), 1 JUST W4NTED TO T3LL YOU B3FOR3 YOU W4K3 UP TH4T 1 W4S OR H3H3 4M FLUSH3D FOR YOU. 4ND M4YB3 4FTER YOU GUYS BR1NG J4CK TO JUST1C3 AND 4FT3R YOU L1V3 YOUR L1F3. THEN W3 C4N TRY TH4T WHOL3 M4TESPR1T3 TH1NG K4RKL3S 4LW4YS 3XPL41N3D TO YOU. OR 1F YOU G3T UNCONV3N4TLY K1LL3D WH1CH WONT H4PP3N C4US3 YOU N33D TO B3 TH3 N3W JUST1C3 BR1NG3R OR H4H4H4 SUP3R H3RO 1N MY PL4CE.
~gallowsCalibrator”

 You smiled, an actual smile not a one of the forced ones you’ve been doing lately, for the first time in what you think to be months.
That’s when you woke up. Slowly opening your eyes you discover that you were crying in your sleep as well as the in the dream bubble. You sat up and saw that instead of that sparkly red and teal cape you were clutching the covers. You chuckled at yourself. Huh, laughing was something you missed over the months. You wiped your tears with your sleeve and with a grin on your face you said to yourself. “Why does she always have to be a hero?”